There is too much to share on one little page. In a mostly small nutshell...
I first knew God's love as a small girl in my fathers arms, outside our church nursery. His presence was strong and clear - I would be His always.
I "committed" my life to him in the 1st grade. I have not chosen a different path ever. I also have not always intentionally pursued Him, but He has always been the One I wanted to serve.
I married a wonderful, Christian man, raised by steadfast Christian parents. From the start of our marriage until now, I have grown to realize my own sinful self-righteousness, my own despair, my terrible human condition and mostly, I have seen God take my small whimper for help to change in ways I didn't even want to change but knew needed to change (still with me?) and lift my spirits, clear my thoughts and most of all, soften my heart to put me on the right track. The track to truly loving Him more than this world.
Mark (my husband) and I have 2 young boys - Asher Avery and Ethan Cole. They are a constant source of learning, contentment, discontentment, frustration, joy, emotion, exhaustion... you get what I'm saying yes?? They are hard work and are also an immense blessing. I cannot explain the happiness I get from hearing Asher say "hi mom" or just hearing his little voice tell me about the things he loves. These boys have also been what has pulled out so much sin in my life. My angry reactions, my selfish ambitions, my desire to have things always be easy for me... God certainly uses them almost daily to sharpen me. I am so grateful for them in my life for so many reasons.
My husband also gives me these same challenges to a different degree. To be so genuine and transparent to someone else is kinda strange. It puts us in a place where we can be so easily hurt. But I'm seeing more and more, that with a husband as great as mine, it's something God is using to teach me to be honest with Him. To own up to my mishaps, my selfishness and my reactions. In my relationship with Mark I'm learning how to approach someone about an issue in genuine care and concern, with the love God wants me to have. Most of all, I'm learning how to take correction... I certainly don't have it down, but I hope that I take less offense to it than when we were first married ;) It's hard to hear something bad about yourself from someone you desire to love you unconditionally... I'm seeing that it doesn't change his love for me, it's his love for me that drives him to correct or advise me, to pull me closer to God and to be more real with him... which really is the end goal.
Don't ever hesitate to email or comment with a question for me... I'd LOVE the chance to be of help in any way... even if it's just sharing my struggles in the hopes of keeping others from falling in the same holes.
My biggest life lesson thus far - take action to seek God no matter the feelings you are experiencing. God is always faithful to restore you, even when you don't want to be restored but know better... He does it with me all the time!
I first knew God's love as a small girl in my fathers arms, outside our church nursery. His presence was strong and clear - I would be His always.
I "committed" my life to him in the 1st grade. I have not chosen a different path ever. I also have not always intentionally pursued Him, but He has always been the One I wanted to serve.
I married a wonderful, Christian man, raised by steadfast Christian parents. From the start of our marriage until now, I have grown to realize my own sinful self-righteousness, my own despair, my terrible human condition and mostly, I have seen God take my small whimper for help to change in ways I didn't even want to change but knew needed to change (still with me?) and lift my spirits, clear my thoughts and most of all, soften my heart to put me on the right track. The track to truly loving Him more than this world.
Mark (my husband) and I have 2 young boys - Asher Avery and Ethan Cole. They are a constant source of learning, contentment, discontentment, frustration, joy, emotion, exhaustion... you get what I'm saying yes?? They are hard work and are also an immense blessing. I cannot explain the happiness I get from hearing Asher say "hi mom" or just hearing his little voice tell me about the things he loves. These boys have also been what has pulled out so much sin in my life. My angry reactions, my selfish ambitions, my desire to have things always be easy for me... God certainly uses them almost daily to sharpen me. I am so grateful for them in my life for so many reasons.
My husband also gives me these same challenges to a different degree. To be so genuine and transparent to someone else is kinda strange. It puts us in a place where we can be so easily hurt. But I'm seeing more and more, that with a husband as great as mine, it's something God is using to teach me to be honest with Him. To own up to my mishaps, my selfishness and my reactions. In my relationship with Mark I'm learning how to approach someone about an issue in genuine care and concern, with the love God wants me to have. Most of all, I'm learning how to take correction... I certainly don't have it down, but I hope that I take less offense to it than when we were first married ;) It's hard to hear something bad about yourself from someone you desire to love you unconditionally... I'm seeing that it doesn't change his love for me, it's his love for me that drives him to correct or advise me, to pull me closer to God and to be more real with him... which really is the end goal.
Don't ever hesitate to email or comment with a question for me... I'd LOVE the chance to be of help in any way... even if it's just sharing my struggles in the hopes of keeping others from falling in the same holes.
My biggest life lesson thus far - take action to seek God no matter the feelings you are experiencing. God is always faithful to restore you, even when you don't want to be restored but know better... He does it with me all the time!
